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[Feb. 6th, 2005|10:03 am] |
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Hey guys new lj name is MichActs add me for friends : ) |
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[Jan. 3rd, 2005|11:37 pm] |
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So its 11:30 and I JUST got him from rehearsal...needless to say this will be the longest week ever. Break was ok, my grandma was in the hospital but i got to hang out with people that i like never see anymore so that made me happy.
Everything involving theater has been pissing me off to no end lately. I honestly dont know why i bother anymore. I'm never good enough apparently, and i never get things that i KNOW i deserve. I'm not saying i deserve a frigin lead all the time, but lets just say i haven't gotten parts i should have in the past so people could be politically correct or whatever. I'm sick of the backstabbing and the fact that everyone is so fake. Also, no matter how talented you might be, someone is always better then you. And then everyone is all nice to your face but then behind your back it is crazy, not even with me specifically, just in general. I cant stand it anymore.
Anyway chicago rehearsal left me in a bad mood for whatever reason and the peter pan lasted 4 LONG hours with no down time. Ugh, why do i do this to myself. I wouldn't mind but i hate when everyone tries to take control, just chill out. |
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[Dec. 23rd, 2004|07:06 pm] |
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| | Billy Joel Millennium concert : ) | ] |
Today was the best day ever. This week was crazy tho, monday was school until 2 chicago until 5, dress rehearsal until 8 and then peter pan until 11. Tuesday was school, hung out with sopan and then chorus concert which was semi entertaining. Yesterday was the holiday rebel yell tour, it was exhausting but i actually had a lot of fun. Even though i got shit from EVERYONE lol. All good. We went to hospitals, PNC Bank arts center and such it was fun. Today I helped katie rev stuff kate franks locker with ribbons and such until it wouldnt close and it was wonderful when she opened it and bows and ribbon came pouring out everywhere lol. Sopan totally made my day today : ) Crying during english haha and russ yelling at me lol.
Classes were good, didnt do anything, got riteman pissed off at me...like i care lol. FPAC sharing was fun, my scene went very well, i heard katies and ashleys scene was hysterical. Then FPAC was amazing. It was just such a good day : )
And to make everything better...i heard the best rumor ever about evan roth...and then sami told me it was true...amazing. lol
Merry christmas everybody! |
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[Dec. 18th, 2004|10:21 pm] |
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Wow sooooo tired. Yesterday, after 4 hours of sleep i gave two presentations which i BSed my way through but i think i did a good job lol. Kaz wasn't there so we had Monk as a sub for three periods in which he told a story and promptly fell asleep lol. After school I hung out with sopan and i totally fell asleep lol. Then we had rebel yell. After rebel yell we went out for steph's birthday which was a lot of fun and then i came home and totally passed out. Today was part one of the rebel yell holiday tour thingy. I actually had fun even though someone had a conflict lol. We did 12 shows today and im soo out of it. When we were at the mall i ran into my little cousins. They are like 3 and 6 sooooo cute! I love them!!! They were like, "Michelle!!! Why are you here? You go to the mall?? Without your mommy?!" I love kids, esp my erin and eddie : )
im freeeeezzzzinggg |
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[Dec. 16th, 2004|08:43 pm] |
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I'm waiting for blood
To flow to my fingers
I'll be alright when my hands get warm
Wow. That totally hit me in a weird way. It hurt. But it was kindda amusing in an ironic way. The what if's in the past won't bother me as much as the what if's in the future. And your right, we would make an awesome couple...
Sooo i made Chicago, yay. Our first rehearsal was yesterday and it went well. I'm having fun. My scene was picked to be used in FPAC sharing day, and i got a small part in eve of one acts. You think i would be really happy, but this feeling that i could have done better is killing me. It's always there, thats why i just stopped trying in other aspects, but i REALLY need to stop that.
I have so much work to do and im drained |
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[Dec. 14th, 2004|11:34 pm] |
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Crazy day. Last round of callbacks today, tomorrow the list will be posted, in other words tomorrow will be the day where everyone is like, "OMG i CANNOT believe so and so got this part! ewwww!" Ugh i hate that part. The audition was actually kindda fun today, i think i did well. Haha watch now i wont even get casted. oyy. After that i had rehearsal and i just wasn't into it, i danced everything half way and i think Patrick was getting pissed off at all of us. I'm not worried tho, like i know what im doing, so if i have no energy left ONE rehearsal i think that is ok.
Wow i am tired.
Everyone is getting into college.
I don't know what i am doing.
People need to stop commenting on a friendship that i have, i swear we are not as interesting as we look, so just stop talking. thanks.
amazing. |
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[Dec. 11th, 2004|06:18 pm] |
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Hung out with Tammy today, we went to breakfast and then malling. We got lost temporarily because we were coming from 79 and couldn't find route 9 from downtown freehold, but we found it.
Me- hmmmm...if i were route 9 where would I be...OMG THERE I AM!!
I'm dumb lol
After we went shopping, we went to Howell to find someones house she was going to later because she didnt know how to get there. We past by coldstone and i was gonna go visit sopan because tammy wanted to meet him but i had to get home, so next time lol. There was some weird song on the radio that went "Don't u wanna kill yourself" over and over...i dont understand how people make money with music like that lol.
Now there is a song on the radio saying, Sheep go to heaven, goats go to hell...i dont get it. lol
Went to CVS and bought red hair dye. I think im gonna dye it red, this is a different kind this time so it might be a real difference...im kindda scared lol. Yeah im just gonna do it. Nothing better to do tonight lol. I have to stay home with my brother...i dont know why.
Ok that is all for now, later! |
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[Dec. 10th, 2004|08:01 pm] |
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"Hanukkah: The fight for freedom"
~George Bush
I'm sleeeeepy. What else is new? Yesterday I hung out with Sopan and then we went to the candle light vigil against drunk driving thing with rebel yell, all of like 10 people showed up. My favorite moment was when one woman said, "Parents, go up to your kids and say 'yo, you wanna go smoke weed?' and keep asking them that until they say no on command."
Wow. The only person who actually made sense up there was the officer who spoke, everyone else should not be allowed to speak ever again...or at least for a while.
Today rebel yell sang on G106.3 and 107.1 that was actually really cool. Listen for us : )
After that was FPAC and Christina and I did our scene. I had to be a man and I went full out, it was sooo sexy let me tell you. It actually went well, and i was really surprised. The people who i talked to said it was good so i was happy about that. Kaz said it worked well : )
Next week are auditions for eve of one acts and call backs for Chicago and rehearsals for Peter Pan and i think something with the video people also.
...And a math test, and an english project...Almost winter break...
I need to be more focused. |
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[Dec. 8th, 2004|10:19 pm] |
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I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is you...
SoOoOoOo i wanna update but i don't think anything has really happened. Yesterday was Joey's birthday hehe. Today was Amanda's birthday, lots of birthdays. Last night rehearsal was fun, Katelyn and I taught people how to waltz because we are losers who actually know how lol. We also played with the drum sticks lol and finished something else. I didn't walk away with any major injuries this time lol.
This week just isn't ending, im sooooooo glad i dont have classes on friday.
Mr. Riteman wasn't here today!!! : )
We started presenting the Shakespeares in FPAC today, they were all really good, i'm afraid mine is going to suck. I am almost sure mine is going to suck. ugh. I NEED TO STOP SUCKING.
Perri and I were talking about our favorite subject of weight loss today and it made me aggravated how i can't do anything about it. I just sit here and increase. I need to stop. She has everything planned out perfectly like i used to...and now i dont and i cant get it back. ugh.
I'm not busy enough now. I need to find something else to get involved in because right now im just going to assume im not going to be in Chicago. |
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[Dec. 6th, 2004|10:30 pm] |
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Sooo 15 minutes huh??
Ugh...
Anyway, today was horrible. Round one of Chicago auditions made me want to cry. I have a blockage in my head when it comes to dancing outside of marlboro, i get really intimidated by everyone and i subconsciously talk myself out of doing well. And just when you thought it wasn't possible, i have found yet another way in which i am self destructive.
On the bright side i am wearing a really cute hat
After that i felt like shit and i went to a peter pan rehearsal and i learned how to drum which made me happy, I also get to tap with Jamie at the same time. I haven't tapped in a while...i havent danced in a while, wow it realllly shows. Oh well i will pick it up...I neeeed to make money and somehow take lessons somewhere. I'm soo getting a job in January. I love seeing my marlboro friends, you guys are the bestest : )
15 minutes???
Tomorrow is Joey's Birthday!! I can't believe my baby is turning 17 hehe. Oh yeah its my mom's birthday too...lol
WOW 15 WHOLE MINUTES...if only he knew...haha |
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[Dec. 5th, 2004|10:48 pm] |
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Have you ever needed someone so bad
You can't sleep at night?
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right?
Have you ever?
Ok i must start out this one by asking WHY are guys so dumb? And why am i so dumb for caring? I donno sometimes i feel like i have no common sense. I have come to the conclusion that there is no one out there for me because i know what i am looking for and i almost never find it, and then when i do it doesnt work out and i torture myself over it, so whatever i am done.
Today i was at howell (surprise!) and rebel yell sang at a toys for tots thing with holiday express. They were really good, we really weren't but thats ok. Then i came home and slept and did homework, and that was my exciting day.
Tomorrow starts 3 days of hell. Aka Chicago auditions, its gonna be soooo frigin cut throat. I am just gonna try going in with a good attitude and see how far that gets me.
I'm so tired of this. |
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[Dec. 4th, 2004|12:20 pm] |
I haven't been to a peter pan rehearsal in forever, they are probably gonna kick me out, if i am lucky. Yesterday was fun, I learned I am being corrupted and being brought down, but on the bright side i am raising someone up so he can stand on mounttaaainnnsss....dont ask lol. People are weird. Last night I hung out with Mike Mike, lots of fun. I had the brilliant idea of going to the beach when it was -30 out, and it was in fact really cold, and really pretty but it was sooooo weird seeing the boardwalk so empty. Then we met up with Tammy and Tony at Fridays, it was a fun night. This morning was rebel yell at Applesbees for a breakfast with santa thing and now I am going Christmas shopping with Tammy, I don't know what to get anyone. Joey's birthday is Tuesday, no idea what to get him, im bad at this game lol. I'm in such a good mood : )
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[Dec. 2nd, 2004|03:53 pm] |
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I have put no effort into anything in a long time, i need to stop being lazzzyyy. ugh im fed up with myself. I could be so awesome if i wanted to lol. I need to do christmas and birthday shopping. I don't know when though. Anyone wanna go holiday shopping with me this weekend? Tammy? anyone? lol
JOEY'S BIRTHDAY IS TUESDAY DONT FORGET!
Owww my tummy hurts : (
I want my long hair back, i am never ever cutting it again. I might dye it red though...
I set my washing machine in fire last night...only i could do something like that. I hope it is ok because i have no clothes...i think im gonna go check on it. later! |
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[Nov. 29th, 2004|07:16 pm] |
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Well this weekend was interesting to say the least. First was the football game on Thursday, basically hung out with sopan and his friend nicole the whole time. I left after half time but i would bet we lost lol. Then thanksgiving was ok, the next day we went to Maryland. Haha yeah awkward doesnt even describe that whole situation well enough. If I was drunk at any point i would have gone right up to one of them and been like, hey what the fuck, why? But yeah i really wasn't. Thank goodness for cell phones, and random conversations where i sound dumb or else I would not have survived.
Example: Sopan- Yeah I really want to live in a mansion
Me- Hmm yeah but mansions are kindda big dont you think?
Wow I am brilliant. That ALMOST beats the time when I was like, "Hey does Jesus have a last name?" I must stop being dumb.
Today was fun, I went to Marlboro after school to see everyone, I saw Mr. Uplinger which totally made my day, and then Tammy and I went out to dinner and we ordered everything in the world, then we were gonna drive to Howell but my mom wanted me to come home and babysit my 13 year old brother...why? I don't know. But we did have a good time.
Now this stolen from my favorite Sami Dercher:
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Michelle
2. Mich
3. loser (only by peter)
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. Seximichi05
2. broadwaybebe88
3. nodiaperohoy525
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. I am awesome
2. I have awesome friends
3. I am sarcastic like woah
THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. I have a fat big toe
2. I am really self concious
3. I am always reallllly cold
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Italian
2. And thats all that matters lol
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. being hurt
2. not ending up where i want
3. paper cuts
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. my 3 rings
2. my bag
3. my planner
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. a sweatshirt that i stole haha
2. PJ pants
3. and thats about it lol
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS (or singers) AT THE MOMENT:
1. Billy
2. Dave
3. Dashboard
THREE REASONS YOU'VE BROKEN UP WITH EXES:
1. Little things
2. college
3. changes
THREE THINGS YOU WOULD WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. love
2. friendship
3. happiness
THREE THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. sense of humor
2. if they are genuinely sweet
3. good kisser
THREE THINGS YOU CAN'T DO:
1. keep my room clean
2. stop daydreaming
3. do a cartwheel
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. acting
2. dancing
3. singing
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BAD RIGHT NOW:
1. Tell 3 people JUST how i really feel
2. take a shower
3. get into college so i dont have to worry about it for the rest of high school
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. actor
2. therapist
3. journalist
THREE PLACES YOU WOULD GO ON VACATION:
1. somewhere warm
2. italy
3. friends dorm room
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. be a crazy good actress
2. fall in love
3. tell off a guy and mean it |
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[Nov. 21st, 2004|05:28 pm] |
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So wow the disaster that was All the Livelong day is over. Actually it turned out ok, last night was pretty good. Jordan came and so did Peter.
Peter was on tour during my birthday so he actually bought me a birthday present last night haha I love you!! Erin came with Peter and it was great seeing her too, I miss hanging out with them. Peter wants me going to Tampa because that is where he went. He was telling me about it, it seems cool but its really far and i donno. He told me he was gonna come over and do college stuff with me, i really dont wanna even think about it yet, even though i kindda have to start. I love Peter, he is the big brother i was supposed to have : )
CONGRATS TO MICHIE WHO GOT ACCEPTED TO TOWSEND!!!!! I am gonna miss you my love!
I was thinking, basically everyone is leaving this year. That sucks. a lot.
I called Michelle Levy because i haven't talked to her in forever. I'm gonna visit her over winter break because i need my michelle : ) I wanna stay at Rutgers with her for a weekend but rents wont let me...there has to be a way to do this. (You need to call me a lot next week, u know why lol)
I have decided I am happy at howell. I was going back and forth for a while but last night i decided i am happy there. It is a lot different, and i miss everybody but i think im happier. Just as long as i have my 2 boyfriends as someone called it last night haha (Sorry Rich I <3 u!! lol)
Now i need to go monologue hunting. later! |
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[Nov. 20th, 2004|11:21 am] |
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When she dances
She goes and goes
Haha this week was such a joke. It was insane. Basically classes until 11:30, FPAC until 2 rehearsal until 10. ALL week. Show opened up Wednesday...its not as bad as we all thought. Not good enough for a Howell show but not THAT bad. If u wanna come, tonight is the last night 8 @ Howell high school. Our director didnt show up last night which is the perfect thing that could have happened considering how the show has been going. I could have called this one 3 months ago lol.
I'm totally isolating myself this year. I blame sopan lol. I kindda like it better for some reason, idk.
Joey and I went out after the show because we live far away. He was telling me some interesting stuff...haha i hope ur right love.
Going to Maryland next week...
For anyone who saw Ms. Wests choreography for the 8th grade orientation with the song about the birds, I asked Lauren Avon what the words were. JUST to prove how much crack Ms. West is on these are the words to the song:
All the people...
Standing on their heads...
They're ready!
Birds....
Excellent Birds!
Wow.
Report card didnt suck that much except for chem. Then I got, "Perri did better then you in chem." And "Joey did better then u in general!" STOP comparing meeee |
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[Nov. 14th, 2004|10:30 am] |
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I hate when people start rumors. |
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[Nov. 13th, 2004|04:44 pm] |
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If you fall I will catch you,
I'll be waiting.
Time after time.
I haven't updated in a while sorry guys! I haven't been home in a while. This week was crazy. I lived in school...I am going to count up the hours i was in school this week...11 on monday, 9 on tuesday, 13 on wednesday, 11 on thursday, 14 last night, and 3 today. 61 hours!!!!! OMG thats CRAAAZYY! Anyway the reason for this craziness is a show opening up on Wednesday, its a revue! Its decent! Come see it! lol. Yeah its ok. ummmmm Idk im just tired. I decided this week that some people are awesome and amazing, and some people genuinely suck. And for those of you who suck...fuck you!
I am not sure if i should bother trying out for gov school. It is going to be insane just to audition to audition. There are 10 of us who want to audition for acting and only 2 can go on the actual audition, all of which are insanely talented. I'm really stressing over this. I'm never good enough. I'm never the best, I never will be the best...that is so frustrating to me. ugh.
All shore audition is Wednesday, I barely had time to practice, which is bad. I know my scales, i need to work on the quartet and tonal memory. But part of that is just luck. idk. I'm stressed. An hour after the audition Livelong day opens, so wednesday might kill me.
I need a hug.
Mr. G is picking people of eve of voice. Its funny because the level 1s and 2s are trying so hard, and 3s and 4s like dont care because we assume we are going to get in lol. I'm working on a song with Chris and a solo. I really don't know or care if either one makes it lol. I'm just so tired. I think the one with Chris will make it and if i actually practice my solo it could make it too. lol. Speaking of singing, I was working on my song with jamian yesterday with Ashante and I was doing so many things wrong and Mrs. Achione never bothered telling me or anyone for that matter if we were doing someone wrong. I hate not getting music to read from, I hate learning off of a CD, I hate when the actual CD we use is different from the one she gave us, and I hate that she can't play piano and doesnt correct me when I am doing something wrong.
I got some of my grade for 1st marking period. Honors English B+, A- in math, History B- (she gave us 2 tests and one quiz the whole time so HOW could u do well?) and probably A in FPAC. Idk about chem...ugh.
Feel better tammy!! |
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[Nov. 8th, 2004|09:35 pm] |
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Ok before i update I will fill out this thing stolen from Perri
A - age: 16
B - band listening to right now: Dave
C - crush: boys suck...actually i donno, i give up lol
D - Dad's name: Howie
E - easiest person to talk to: Joey and Jordan
F - favorite band at the moment: Dave
G - gummy bears or gummy worms: worms!
H - hometown : Fairlawn NJ baby!
I - instruments: Voice
K - kids: not any at the moment as far as i know
L - longest car ride ever: New Jersey to Maryland...i know not that long
M - Mom's name: Donna
N - number of siblings: 1, Matt
O - one wish: to be totally happy with my life
P - phobia[s]: papercuts
Q - favorite quote: "I love you!"
R - reason to smile: daydreams, blankets, friends, crushes, beach, stuff to look forward to
S - song you sang last : Considering I just came from a Livelong Day rehearsal, i refuse to answer that question
T - time you wake up : 5:30 for school 4:30 if i excise or didnt finish my homework
U - unknown fact about me: i actually drink 8 glasses of water a day
V - vegetable you hate: tomatoes
W - worst habit(s) you've had: i crack every part of my body
X - x-rays you've had: knee and chest
Y - yummy food: cookies!
Z - zodiac sign: Cancer
OK time to update. I had a mini nervous breakdown on Friday, which consisted of me feeling bad, like i would never be good enough, blah blah blah, and then i cried to my mom and felt better. Friday night I had rehearsal and danced my butt off, pulling EVERY muscle in my leg. I was still a little upset when i got home, so instead of going to sleep I ran two miles with my already injured leg, but hey i felt better. Then I went to sleep. Saturday I woke up early i realized i couldn't walk lol. My aunt drove me to Fairlawn where I spent the weekend with Cara which made me sooooo happy, i LOVEEE her and he family more then anyone. they win. I came home sunday night and just slept. Woke up today with a bad cold. JOEY IS HOME that made me sooooo happy. Classes were good, grades could be better. "Rehearsal" was bad. I don't get it, im not even getting into it. Achione made a comment that made me wanna leave but instead i just gave her the finger when she wasn't looking...oh im cool. yeah not really lol. I need to pay attention in chem, its the only class that doesnt hold my interest. I neeed to get rid of this cold. I neeed to do better. |
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[Nov. 5th, 2004|01:43 pm] |
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Last night I went to Kara's. I spent the night there which was a lot of fun. I cam home around 9:30 this morning and found myself pissed of at my mom for wasting her life on this damn computer. It is all she cares about now. She hasn't said two words to me today that didn't involve this damn machine. Then she criticizes the way I spend MY time?? No. Ugh I wanna get out of here. Hopefully I am going to Fairlawn tomorrow, i neeeeeeeed to see cara, and kyle, and jed. They are my second family, so when mine pisses me off, I go to them. I miss them. So anyway today I came home, ran 2 miles, wrote an essay, called cara, took a shower, watched the breakfast club and yes, that was my exciting day. Tonight I have rehearsal, not looking forward to it because i hate that my mom is producing the show. First of all, if ONE more person says, "Oh well of course you got in, your moms the producer." I will flip out 1. because i have been in this company longer then my mom 2. my mom had no say in who got in 3. who says that?? so everyone needs to shut up. Second, she takes the job WAAAAAYYY too seriously, i cant have a conversation with her that doesnt involve this damn show, and of course i cant tell her any of this because then she will either get all defensive or not do it anymore and then I will feel bad. ahhh!
Everything is so messed up. |
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